- an interesting dilemma
- August 17th, 2009
some people would say i'm lucky to have the problem i do.
oh, those boys, boys, boys.
i met him at swimming, back in the middle of july. i fell so hard.
we became good friends. we liked each other.
some people say im lucky i have someone that its so hard to say goodbye to, someone who i love and who cares about me, and who's not just a "crush" but a friend. but he's gone, he went home after the summer, and i never got to say goodbye.
but i dont.
sorry to anyone who's reading this. and i'm trying really hard to use proper grammar, too.
and of course after a summer of just him, just brian, two other guys pop up right after he leaves. one is a boy that my friend jess likes, his name is tray, and i work with him, but i just met him yesterday. he patted me on the back...my dad's called the cops on him before...he's a swimmer...he's a really cool guy, and i would go for him if
a) my dad didn't hate him
b) jess didn't like him
c) i didn't still love and miss brian so much
and then nick pops up again. nick and i were flirting at the beginning of the summer, then lost touch around the same time brian came into my life-coincidence, no. but i need a date for homecoming and nick looks like a good option. and we're talking again. the day after i meet tray.
it been almost two weeks since ive seen brian. i can barely handle it. how will i wait until next summer?
sorry to burden anyone who's reading this with my stupid emotional baggage. im just really upset and confused-the only person who's been willing to listen is my friend chris, who i basically dumped the whole sob story on last night while he tried to give me advice.
so, if you have anything to say, anything at all...just comment. message, whatever.